Monday, August 29, 2011

친구?

who i really belong in or belong to?

or

who am i?

i think i seriously have a huge role confusion is who i am.

i should not have went busybody to other ppl's wall and events.

in the end, i just found out i am just an ousider~!

yeah ~! g-r-e-a-t~!

i am no-body-else-cares person, nor do i should care myself of being cared by others ya?

who am i really?

why i am here for?

being someone that someone can lead for when they have no other people more that can care them for?

who can really define 有福同享,有难同当?

the sayings goes "a friend in need is a friend indeed"

where are/is my friend(s) when i needed them?

where am i when they needed friend?

i will always be there for them no matter i am able to help or not.

but where are they?

how about the happinest to share?

maybe the truth have already proof me for along time ago. that i am a loner and always be a loner.

okay, then i should now try to accept the fact the truth and the reality.

=')

Sunday, August 21, 2011

STALK

told me myself not to do this anymore. but. just when i saw him on fb... i am tempted to do so.

STALK~!

thought i cant see much as he does not have many new wall post or etc. i still wana go and have a look about his "life".

not been talking with him for a sentence...or even a word~!

i never ever have this chance...again/?

i know i had given the chance, not just once but more than once in being "alone" with him. i mean just the two of us, no friends around us.

but , every time i let the chance pass through, ... ... ...

and every time, the same old thing that i did is, silence.

yes, i let the chance pass, and this chance had been taken by that girl.

i know i dont have rights to hate/jealous of that girl..."do i?"

now i am not sure what am i talking about.

remembering, that day.

somehow i hoped to meet you at the library, but somehow, you were with that girl.

i didnt hope more to this . i just wana meet you, maybe this can help me in my math test later/?

what if you are still taking the same math as i do? will you still be as close with her? or vice versa with me? *sounds impossible*

may be i should have more courage in giving up, not thinking about anything anymore.

maybe love life is not what i should be in. maybe being just normal is just what i am and who i am. MAYBE.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

swallowing that pains

13/8/11 Saturday

i wana shout out loud to them that SWALLOWING pains, but all they could ever hear is just pain~!

i duno what to react especially when i thought them tat they just tell me to not bite but just swallow the porridge ~! but cant any single of human being of you all hear what i said~? SWALLOWING that pains ~! if the swallow part is pain how am i gona eat normally even though without the biting part?

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NUMBNESS

13/8/2011 Saturday

x-ray, surgery, stitching and all in just two weeks time two appointment with dentist.

finally i did my extraction of wisdom tooth or in korean language love tooth (랑니)

now i can only feel the total numbness and the totally swelling especially half of my lips. i can even feel and smell the sucky yucky smell that come from my mouth and the stitch on my bleeding gum.

how long and how long more this annoying problem gona stop ? and anyone or just someone stop it now.?

AIGOO ~ this experience gona have again the next time for my left wisdom tooth i think.


Sunday, August 07, 2011

사랑니, love teeth

pain pain and pain.

wisdom tooth is giving much "help" in that.

going to have surgery soon.

ohmy, of other people's experience, it sounds bad, especially, my ee2 is soon~!

imagining face swollen, sore etc. worse there will be a hole~! food will go inside to fill up the empty place. if that happen i am going to dentist again?

NO ~!

Saturday, August 06, 2011

나는 화났어

i dont get it. i seriously dont get it.

how can she inform me in last min./? or should it be if i never ask, she will never ever gonna tell me so, right?

and how could she just did every decision by her own?! does she ever know she is in a group of 4?

remind her over and over again to send me her report for me to see as reference, but, she still forgot.

i dont get it. she hates me or something? if she is, just say so, i can just kindly not car pool with she and wait for my mom instead. what is it that hard.

plus, i can be alone without any problem, which i always do~!

maybe i should not care anything again. why should i in the first place should care? is not that people ever care about me before. and always i am the one that kept on listening to their stories. but no one does ever want / will listen to me.

the next time, i'm not praying for her to stay back or something else, might as well just wait for mum to take me back.

though alone is lonely, but edu is more important.

BUT SERIOUSLY,

why and why, everything i did today just dont suit me well, sent text to so many people, not a single human being replied me except maxis~!

in the end i accomplish nothing but gain angry~!

Friday, August 05, 2011

i cant believe

04/08/2011 Thursday.

fishy

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lie

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Wednesday, August 03, 2011

language is more important to the mind than the light is to the eye

- via Miracle Worker-movie

Daniel or Fruit Cake?

3/8/2011 Wednesday

unexpected happiness happened to me . =)

but i should have follow my heart to wear pretty today.

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Chick's On Run

2/8/2011 Tuesday

i should start restraint myself from filling myself with delicious food.

i should have save $ by bringing food to uni but instead i go the waste way by eating so deliciously today.

but

it is actually worth it, it tastes good, though it is kinda expensive for the not that big portion.

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Monday, August 01, 2011

Ugly

1/8/2011 Monday.

20mins till 0000hours of 2/8/2011.

i think i am ugly and nobody wants to love me, just like her, i wanna be pretty, i wanna be pretty, dont lie in my face coz' i know i'm ugly~!

Just crowded or Only noisy?

8/1/2011 Monday

is it me or somebody is too noisy ?

is it just crowded or only noisy?

in library there are rules and regulations, but barely people follow it/them, rather people chose to against it.

though they knew about it/them, they still break it as if it is rightful to do so.

however, when they are said/scolded, they feel a sense of innocent.

people never ever thought of sometimes or should say often they are wrong, but they chose to not accept the fact they are wrong.

same thing as, people love to judge each other, but they never thought of judging their own selves. they too never thought they themselves may have the personality that they actually have in them but when they look at others they judge others, criticize others, blame others.

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Good Tea Good Time

30/7/2011 saturday

finally, a good great awesome time with my bestie at sungai wang and times square.

we have a promise with each other for weeks or is it months?

finally, and finally, we made it~!

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