Friday, September 30, 2011

笑， 幸福。




不是因为幸福才笑 ， 而是因为笑而觉得幸福 ♥

- KANG HO DONG via 强心脏



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Friday, September 16, 2011

MEMORIES


memories of lovely food i took

memories of waiting for my mum

memories of talking to him

memories of shopping with my friends

memories of going somewhere for the first time

memories of special events that i went

memories of sitting with him

memories of stalking him from far

memories of snapping the great shots of the sun light

memories of new clothes

memories of new items

memories of of everything that i took to recall for any other times to come

but

i just lost them all

though it is saved in my heart

but

long term memory can fade after sometime too

sometimes later i may not know what i did before during my youth

sometimes later i may not know what i actually love the most

sometimes later ...

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PLAINLY STUPID?

everyone told me to cheer up , dont cry , dont be sad.

but.

i cant stop myself from being so sad and doing the cry-over-split-milk action.

there are lots of memories in it.

memories that no one will understand.

memories that is so priceless.

memories that are more expensive than anything else.

i lost them all.

i cant blame anyone.

as

it is just plainly my own fault.

i am plainly stupid for not backing up my stuff in computer and also thumb-drive and in cd/dvd.

i am plainly stupid for carrying my phone to the toilet without my phone bag.

i am plainly stupid for everything, and everything happened because i am plainly stupid.

no matter how much regrets i have now no matter how much sorrow i feel now cant change a single bit of what have happened yesterday.

at first i thought i am having a bad worse worst day ever. but. actually i am just plainly stupid.

that is why i screwed my econ test without knowing i did wrong in the first place.

that is why i ended my phone's life in a deep down disgusting place.

goodbye to my econ. goodbye to my "hubby" supernova.

so long to them may they rip.

well..what i am doing now?

sound as if it is end of the world?

i dont know.

i am being so useless worthless emptiness now.

pray hard that yesterday never happened before. but it is worthless.

cant do anything that can undo my wrongs feeling useless.

doing what should i do now, feeling emptiness as whole.


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Saturday, September 10, 2011

Outingsss

5/9/2011 Monday.

'Dating' at iceroom @ port dickson.

finally met evon dar at port dickson. since weiping couldnt make it with us. we officially start our date at iceroom.

it is the very first time i went there. i called manga...ice shaved. it is delicious as usual, coz it is the mango taste.

at first i thought we might be bored, but the result is unexpected. though just the two of us, we did had some fun chating together and enjoying the ice-shaved.

it is kinda sad as we thought that this raya holiday we could gather at port dickson for BARBECUE. however, the result remains constant.

"they" themselves had their outing w/o us again. this happens as i knew i aint important person to be counted in the group aka gang.


7/9/2011 Wednesday.

Had "a very first" shopping with mum.


8/9/2011 Thursday.

Out to go with sis. What's the flavour?



9/9/2011 Friday.

Tooth decay.

Yamcha as usual.

10/9/2011 Saturday.

Runaway with chia.

11/9/2011 Sunday.

Shop with mum again.

9/9/2011 Friday.

Wedding dinner day.

i had fun today ? somehow i doubt it is, i cant even have a right definition of fun now.

is fun about eating delicious food?

is fun about meeting old friends?

is fun about getting drunk too?

if it is, i didnt really got to eat all delicious food, i didnt really "meet" old friends, i didnt even drink much of the wine.

it feels like i am the most odd person there, doing nothing but just waiting for the next dish to be served. everyone was selca-ing, talking and high-ing. while i myself am doing nothing but staring what they are doing and fake a smile to what they smiled.

it feels even suck when someone ask me whether i did go to someppl's house when i dont even know why and when or what is that about~! well, maybe i am a too quiet person. so i dont have much friends. or should i say i have none?


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